Tuesday, March 2

Oot! Oot! Oot?

So, some really exciting news that at the same time is sad. I got the lead in the musical!! I'm very excited about it, but at the same time that means my closest friend Christi didn't get it. But she still has a part, so that's good. It's a weird-personalities-but-musically-talented cast. I'm not the biggest fan of all the people that got in, but there are some redeeming people too. So that's very awesome.

Additionally, my class got cancelled today, due to my professor apparently being in an accident. I hope she's OK, but I really can't stand her teaching, so I'm glad the class is cancelled. And she was obviously well enough to write the email, so I'm just going to count this as a blessing.

The visit with my parents went well, except that I told them I was no longer in favor of capital punishment and they JUMPED down my throat and called me a perfect Catholic (this was meant as an insult since we are Baptists) and said that I didn't have a clue what I was talking about because murderers and rapists just soak up our tax dollars sitting in prison for 50 years, and I automatically must be against guns and self defense and probably war by extension. To which I must simply go, "HUH?!?! Are you serious???" OK, an explanation of my view is important now: I am against it on Christian moral grounds. I don't care about the "dignity of human life" argument--they really deserve whatever the state throws at them for their awful crimes. But since when should a Christian support anything because it's what someone deserves? Really, THAT'S the message you get out of the Gospel? Save people from hell, but then kill them if they violate some of the more important Commandments? I just don't get how the two are congruent. Then again, I don't get how a Christian can actually HATE a gay person, or anyone else for that matter. Different topic for a different day. Anyway, yes, murderers and rapists deserve death, and yes, keeping them in prison for life is incredibly expensive, but I just can't condone it. How is the current system right? You killed someone, and now our solution is more death? As I tell people who take the opposite view (MOST in my life), the justice in me wants it to be OK, but the Christian just knows it isn't.

OK, down off the soapbox I come. In less heated news, I was planning on a ridiculously busy day. Today's schedule went something like this: class, chapel, lunch, homework, class, rehearsal, class, cast party. Now that the second class is out of the picture, I'm going to take a short nap, POSSIBLY work out, and do homework. As I thank God again for that cancelled class that made this possible.

In other news, I talked to the guy in charge of hiring for this summer internship I want in Fort Wayne and it sounds like I just might get it!! Now, whether it will pay enough is still in question, so even if I get it I might have to turn it down. I need $12/hr to make enough for an actual full-time, post-graduate job. But I love the people at that office and I love the area, so I hope they offer me a position with enough salary.

And lastly, the ex-fiance/new girlfriend situation is as WRETCHED as ever. I just can't stand her face. her gum-smile. her laugh. her hand in his. Why I look, I can't answer myself that. I just do, and it's another reason to get me the hell off this campus. BUT, there's another girl on campus who just went through a broken engagement like seriously within a month of mine, and she just Facebook messaged me last night and said she was praying for me. Out of the blue--don't know this girl at all, apart from knowing that her fiance, this other guy I don't know, broke off their engagement. It was super sweet and encouraging to know that someone who knows EXACTLY (minus new girlfriend) what I'm going through is praying for ME and not just her own healing. It put me in my current wallowing, depressed place for sure.

So, that's the update. Also, the wheel-throwing in Pottery is still SUCKING. I'm not getting better, but hopefully I'll use this week to improve (fingers crossed!).

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